My brain is writing

I would like to post more but have felt overwhelmed. It’s not just one thing, but if I could chop my life in half things might be easier. Then again, I could also go roost in a tree as it’s just as probable that’s going to happen.

Lately, my brain has written what’s been going on. I write internally — I describe how I feel to myself, I process my emotions, I create situations to move me through my feelings.

I didn’t want my blog to be journal-like: lists for the grocery store and how sometimes I pluck one eyebrow too high and people assume I am always perplexed.  I wanted my blog to capture my essence: why I run, how I feel, and what I am as a writer. I wanted to tell stories.

Now, it seems, the stories in my head are about me. I feel like I need to write so am going to hit publish more often. Even if my posts are not as finished as I would like them to be, if readership and comments drop off, or if it’s not the quality I had hoped. For me the process of writing is what I need right now. I need to do to get better, and I need to do to get through this space/funk/depression/wilt I’m in.

I won’t have space for good stories if the ones in my head can’t get out. I appreciate those of you who do drop by and read and visit and comment. It helps me feel connected to something bigger. It keeps me inspired. I aspire to better things as I read your posts. (Especially those of you who have in-law pets named Thurber).

Bear with me as I bear with myself.


10 thoughts on “My brain is writing

  1. So needed to see this. I’ve been having the same problem. I think your strategy for coping with it is a good one.

    • This comment is for the both of you: I love posts that are a little more personal. We’re always inundated with ‘outside’ information that a little ‘inside’ information is a nice break. Plus, what’s better than following (and supporting) someone on their journey? It’s like group therapy, but cheaper.

      • Thanks. That was nice to hear. And it answered some of my concerns regarding inundating others with personal crap. We all have the choice as to what we choose to read, even the spambots.

  2. Most of the time I don’t feel like my posts are finished. In fact once I publish them, I think, oh wait there is something else I could add or why did I say that. So go on and ramble and react and tell us how you feel because we are all in this together. 🙂

  3. Lately, more of my writing has been in my head than on my screen. Eventually it will go where it’s supposed to be and it sounds like your written words will get to where you want them to go soon, too. In addition, I have a steamy excuse: I don’t have a/c and summer makes me wilt. The in-law dog is flattered by the honorable mention. He says, “Woof!”

    • I don’t have the steamy excuse; I could say my brain is in stand-by mode. Sometimes there is no time to warm it up and turn it operational. True, eventually the words will go where they are supposed to. There seem to be so many of them, but they only come out in bits and bites.
      I say “Woof” right back.

  4. Writing a blog is an interesting beast. I don’t know about you, but I spend hours on one single post, making it as close to “perfect” as I can, and it’s like sweating blood. And I’m not making a penny for any of this effort! Remembering that keeps me from taking it all too seriously. Like you, I want to write. I need to write. Even if it’s only about myself at the moment, as long as someone is reading, I’ll keep writing.

    • It’s so true that having a blog is an interesting beast. I think if no one read what I wrote my approach would be much different. I like to share what I have — which is why my post is public — but knowing that it’s publicly read means I put much more effort into what I do publish. It does take time, something I don’t always have much to spare.
      But like being a recreational athlete, I do this primarily for myself and only have myself to answer to. That helps when my supposed posting schedule falls to pieces!

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