This weekend I ran a race.
I love to train; I really, really don’t like to race. I’ve spoken before about my race anxiety and how I can spiral out of control in my fears and even throw up before race. I avoid races for the stress and the pressure I put on myself. I find it more draining emotionally than physically to race, and the reward is never attainable. I never *enjoy* the experience and even if I meet a time goal, I am already worried that the next time I might fail.
After describing this anxiety (and a few more symptoms), my Naturopathic doctor suggested I get a vitamin B12 shot. My lab results had shown I was low even with the oral supplement I was taking.
The results were amazing, and overnight. I had energy, I was calmer, I felt more stable and confident. My race went really, really well. My plan was not to look at my watch the whole race, and run an easy pace so that I never felt that things were uncomfortable. (Usually when I get uncomfortable I start to panic). I needed to run at least one race where I didn’t feel like I was ‘racing’ for a time or place.
My husband had calming advice before I left the house. He said I should run as though I was the only one on the road, doing my own workout. It was fun to be running along and then see crowds of people in my way!
The course was hilly but easier than I remember it from two years ago when I last ran this route. My coach was reassuring in that whatever happened it would be fine: I was running for me. I ran almost three minutes faster with less effort.
So with great support and some super vitamin B12 I was feeling a little like Lance Armstrong – without the scandal, money, and medals. Still, I did get a little something to take home with me.