December was a busy month. We decided as a family to keep Christmas low-key this year, and I think we generally succeeded. There was not the post-elation crash for the kids, and I felt our sense of gratitude was more apparent for what we did have. We were thankful for the small steps to make these realizations; it’s not always easy when the pressures can overwhelm us. I did a fair bit of baking and cooking, but I did barely any shopping. My husband did a lot of it, for which I am so grateful. I’m better at going to the dentist than I am at going to the mall.
Most days I write down five things I am grateful for, big or small, subtle or apparent. I archive and post the list monthly. This is December 2012.
my Love being back home — the end of a hellish week — a strong workout, even if I felt weak — being inside on a rainy day — support in my life.
so many ideas before bed — beautiful rainforest to run through — double-knotted shoelaces — the rainbow at the top of the lookout — taking the kids to the ballet.
looking at the clock for the first time and realizing your work day is almost half over — getting to maybe is better than just saying no — lunch (when I forget how cranky I am when I don’t eat) — not my day to say “hurry up and get dressed” all morning — my Love who asks me “When would you like to do your workout today?”
the perspective that who I am is not reflective of likes or followers on social media — my physiotherapist — an empty parking spot right next to the building when I am late for an appointment — leaving the house closer to on time — being able to go and do my own things with the support of my family.
supportive emails from two unexpected places — a really supportive friend — the time for two workouts — feeling more relaxed at home — eating soup on a cold day.
more virtual support (I love you guys!) — my beautiful new cape to keep me warm (and stylish) — a good cry on the way home in the car — people who clean our house — real time / real life support.
my naturopath – for her easy ways and wisdom and support — a kid who sings, “Let’s make foods that start with F. Let’s make French Toast for breakfast!” — an easy day at work — reading great blog posts that inspire me — feel abundant in my life.
a coupon for a haircut — a cheap and great! haircut — getting errands done — the kids helping me with christmas baking — realizing that most time lines are self-imposed expectations.
my Love for doing *so* much for me today — a great friend for showing up for a run neither of us wanted to do — a hot shower after the run — a mini-nap — a warm house and a roof as it rains and rains and rains.
lots of green lights when I was late for work — a well-timed post on deflating our ego — a good sleep — having choices — this list.
the chocolate I ate today that put me over the edge, but also took the edge off my day — being treated with kindness — not having to make lunches — thoughtful blog posts and a reassuring email — getting christmas shopping started.
my kind and helpful hygienist — really, does a hygienist get thanked enough in a day? — some realizations that help me figure out who I am — kind commenters on my blog — a bit of sunshine — a day of rest and recovery, and maybe wine.
my supportive and willing husband, even when I have irrational demands –that my kids are my kids and they are safe and loved — inspiring and reflective blog posts — making space for me — those who choose to challenge their beliefs.
going and finishing a long and wet run — good friends who babysat our kids — inner knowing and peace after yoga class — some time for rest — knowing there is just one more week of school (and making lunches) before some days off and holidays.
an early morning workout — hot tea that someone else made and brought me in person — my warm wool coat — a nice (paid) lunch out with co-workers — support for my goals.
being inside when the rain was lashing outside — the calm and quiet of an evening run — the Christmas lights we saw on the run — the patience to bake another cake when the first one disintegrated — going to bed and being asleep within minutes.
my kids being more excited about my birthday than me — having time to make 2 cakes (when the first one disintegrated upon assembly) — feeling abundant when shopping — thoughtful family members who still remember who I am and that it is my birthday — no crazy winds.
an easy day at work — the (free) chai latte that distracted me from my chocolate headache — time to workout after work — date night! — cake for dinner.
waking up in the dark for a fabulous run with some fabulous girls (and one great guy) — finally being on holidays — being inducted to Le Clown’s blogroll — the readers of Le Clown’s inductee post who commented or liked or followed — eating cake for my second breakfast.
waking up late and still doing a great workout — being at home — getting christmas baking done — going to see *another* movie — being thankful for what is, and what isn’t.
having Christmas with just our family — all the dirty dishes that can wait — my husband for supporting me as me — that my husband and I want the same things — how the kids are grateful.
being indoors and feeling cozy with family — joy — how the kids trust magic — sleeping in — not needing to “do” more.
a new Garmin to take on my run — the hot tub — some quieter time — lots of food — watching Dr. Who with my favorite guy.
changes in the air — my husband being with the kids while I go to work — less cookies — some sunshine — starting to feel less time-stressed.
Friday — irony — more days off ahead — clean laundry — date night.
going on my longest run in 2 months — finishing the run — new running shoes — chai latte — funny posts by my blogging friend.
dinner and a movie! — time in the hot tub — a good morning workout even though I was tired — holidays, AND also going to work tomorrow — tasty leftovers.
a short day at work — a day off from workouts — a new schedule of workouts to look forward to — seeing friends on New Year’s eve — the Eve of a New Year.