Some days I would really like a do-over. Or skip the day entirely. My mornings can be crazy. I can get up and do two or three jobs before I even leave the house for work.
Usually I wake up early to exercise. I do this and get home before anyone else in my house is awake. I often feel like I get this out of the way before I am consciously aware that I am exercising. I get home and I am tired. But it’s time to get the family going for the day: lunches to make, kids to wake, breakfasts to eat, and kids to get dressed. Another hour can easily slip by. I have barely had time to shower and eat or make coffee and I am late for work.
I get to work; I am a little late and I have been awake for 3 hours already. I am tired. Work is just starting. It is just 8:00 a.m.
I do this most mornings and each day I wonder how to be more efficient. How many steps can I cut out to get the same result? What can I prep the night before to maximize the time I do have at home? Can I eat in the shower to speed things up? (The answer to this is somewhat yes, but then the toast is really soggy and the coffee is heavily watered down).
I don’t like to be rushed, or stressed. I often end up knocking something over, or spilling something, which costs me more time as I clean it up. It doesn’t work because the more scattered I get, the more things seem to go wrong, or they are challenging. I can be 10 min late and suddenly we are out of bread. Or I can have 5 min before I have to leave the house and the cat decides to barf all over the rug. Life is all about timing.
The kids know that I stress over this routine, but most days are the same to them. They don’t know if I have been up for 1.5 hours by the time they finally drag themselves out of bed and come downstairs. They aren’t concerned that I still have apples to cut and coffee to grind as they appear still in pajamas and don’t want to get dressed. They just are.
And some days it’s good to see things just as they are. To see that what doesn’t get done will get done — either in a few more minutes or at another time. My day will carry on whether I am 10 min late or a half hour. I don’t like to be late, in general, but not much will change either way. I will stay later at work to offset my morning rush and lateness.
And in those mornings where I see things just as they are, I also see different things. I see things as they are without being bothered by them. We may be out of bread, but the kids are okay with cereal for breakfast and soup for lunch. I may not have been able to have breakfast, but a bagel to go can be eaten almost anywhere.
It’s good to recognize and see these things, because they are often overlooked by the crazy of the day. There are some days where you want cereal and you reach for the milk. There is milk, but the container is very light. You shake it, as is habit, and try to guess how much is left. And when you pour it into your bowl, there is just enough milk to satisfy your cereal and make it a breakfast.
And for that, I am grateful.
*This is a post in my mini-series, “Gratitude on Wednesdays.” Most Wednesdays I like to write about something I’m grateful for and I encourage you to comment and tell me the same. It’s the little things that can make a difference in our life, so here’s a gentle reminder to start paying attention.