Surviving in this world (and making it to work on time) is challenging. I find being a mom on top of this overwhelming.
There was an article in the news recently about a mom who went on an anti-housework strike. She’d had enough of cleaning up after her three girls who could do the things she was doing, so she just stopped doing it. I had hoped to do a modified version of this, but my husband picked up the slack. He did it all, and it all got done. Kids fed, homework done, showers were had, pajamas on, teeth brushed, and off to bed. Happy little campers, with a stewing little mama left alone.
It all needed to be done, but I was not sure how to show my kids the lesson without screaming and yelling and revolting.
Some days I don’t know how to manage it. I get moody, or overwhelmed and easily stressed. I like to run, but even sometimes getting in a run is a stress as well. I always feel better after, and everyone in my house knows it. It’s not a point of discussion.
Still, I need something outside of my usual self to feel better. I know that I need to resolve and access some basic inner peace. It’s like I’m looking for a how-to manual to get myself back on track. I don’t know how to create pause in my life, and sustain it.
Some days are better than others, of course. Some days I have a lot of patience and can get through it. Those are days I have had a lot of sleep, and probably didn’t go to work.
The obvious choice to deal with stress and busy-ness is meditation. I don’t think I could handle meditation right now. My excuse is there is no time. The next bright idea is more like moving meditation: yoga. My husband has done yoga for a few years now and really enjoys it. I go on and off, though the last few years its been mostly off because of my schedule. I (and the family) just can’t handle one more thing. But now he’s suggested I go as well.
After some thought, and planning, I signed up. I am really looking forward to it and think I will really enjoy it; the teacher is fantastic. It will be more for him to do as it will be a weekend class that I’ll go to after my Sunday run. I’ll be leaving the house around 7:30 and coming back after 3pm. That’s many hours to handle a household on a day “off.”
But, as he pointed out, I need this. And if I can get more of me settled, it will benefit us all. So I’m going. Happily. It will be my rebellion: a yoga strike; I will go do yoga and be away from the household. The kids won’t even notice. They will know I’m away, but they won’t see how much I don’t do. But perhaps I will be calmer and more collected when I come home and we can work through what needs doing together.
The change in season is tiring for me. All this gray weather and skies and water and beaches is draining. I need to build a fire from within.
*Do you do yoga? Has it helped create some inner calm?
*Do you have a hard time with the change of season?
*What do you do to relax in your day?