Sometimes no news is better than any news. When you are given an inconclusive report, rather than a definitive test result showing you have a diagnosis, this can be better. It shows you that you do not have all the things that indicate a specific condition. Essentially, you have avoided a condition or circumstance that could change your life. This way, your life stays the same. No news can be easier.
Today I realized that the knowledge you gain from watching television only goes so far. I had to take my kid to the pediatrician. He has a weird infection on his gums that flares up without cause. We’ve been to numerous doctors, dentists, an oral surgeon, a periodontist, an ear-nose-&-throat specialist and on today’s stop, the pediatrician. The pediatrician suggested this inflammation could be systemic of a few different auto immune diseases. Rare, unlikely, but he may have sarcoidosis.
“Oh yeah?” I say, a bit enthusiastically.
“Are you familiar with sarcoidosis?” he asks.
“A bit,” I answer. I know how to spell it. Just the way it sounds. Then nodding I say, “I know the term.” As though this is all-encompassing knowledge. It’s as if I know the term, the terminology, the history, the background, the reality, the permutations. I have this strange ability to say ‘yes’ to someone when I mean ‘Yes, go on. I am listening’ but people interpret this as ‘Yes, I totally understand and probably know more than you. Get to a part where you are telling me something that I don’t know.’
“So you understand what the conditions is and how it presents?” the doctor asks.
And then I realize my knowledge is all spent. “Well, no,” I answer. “I’ve heard the term on TV. A medical show.”
“Oh.” He looks at me. “You mean House, or Grey’s Anatomy?”
I am a heel. He is absolutely correct. “Something like that.”
“It’s very unlikely he has sarcoidosis,” he tells me.
I am relieved. A strange diagnosis could be a diagnosis but a non-diagnosis means he does not have what he could have. Cryptic, yes. Reassuring? mostly.
Sometimes no news is better than any news.